The spark was still there and there was no denying it, but it had just been so toxic we didn't want to hurt each other again.

I know it's unhealthy to think this, but I feel like he is just with me because of my pregnancy.

While I don't believe that things would ever be bad as they were, it does cross my mind that maybe things have improved because life as we know it has come to halt.

I'm 37 and he's 30.